i feel as though i have a million things i need to do. i feel like im drowning in list. i make list for things i need to get done, things i want, things i want to accomplish, and try my best to organize it all. but i truly feel as though i have ZERO motivation. its just plain easier to say what i want to have accomplished than to take the steps to do it. i get so frustrated with myself and maybe my way of dealing with it is to make a list.
i am so beyond blessed right now in my life to have as much free time in my schedule as i currently do. a year ago i was the busiest i had ever been and while working a job that i loved with a great passion-I was allowing it to take over my life and every second of it was spent caring for someone else in crisis. not to mention i was learning the hardest task i had ever encountered: my role as a WIFE. oh, how i had envisioned this role with great excitement. but i found out quickly it was hard to figure out. (i am soooooo blessed with a very patient, encouraging, and loving husband-Thank you GOD for making that easy on me!)
so, my conclusion to this madness is that i create list as a way to organize in my mind all the things i feel i need to be doing and accomplishing and all while adding the things i am currently desiring. and now that i have these list and the free time-i need the motivation. i need the organization to prioritize (always been an issue for me). and i need a place to start.
i envy those that wear 8670467 hats. they seem to be able to do it all. but i am encouraged by them and find myself wanting to be like them. i want to be the best wife to my husband. i want to make our home a welcoming place that is tidy (hard to do with a Tripp living there) and safe. i want to allow our home to be inviting and comforting. i want to be a coupon expert saving our family money. i want to be creative. i want to be enticing to my husband. i want hobbies (my husband and all of his friends have a bizillion of them-i have come to believe its a man thang). i want to be a part of a bible study-i feel the need to grow spiritually and be apart of group of women growing together in their faith. i want to devote time to children in need. i want to ministor to teens facing unplanned pregnancies and i want to be apart of soemthing that will help put a stop to these destructive behaviors that are creating never ending cycles.
(and as you have noticed in the mist of sharing my heart, i have created yet another list-lord, pray for me.)
Ponder these verses: (this is our blueprint)
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A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 "Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.